Toward the end of my last relationship, cuckolding was occasionally drifting back and forth in my head between a hard limit and a soft limit, or something I’d be willing to do for the right person given enough “persuasion” or outright force. I didn’t say anything about it though; what if we decided to try it, and that day turned out to be a day when it was more on the hard limit side? I wanted to make sure I was certain about it being a soft limit before bringing it up. So I kept thinking on it and processing my thoughts. Once I reached that point where it became a soft limit with no wavering (maybe a month after we split) I posted on here about it.
I’m currently going though that same back-and-forth process with another type of play.
Strap-on play has been something I’ve found hot for years, but I’ve never experienced a bio-cock other than my own. At this point, it’s safe to say I’d be up for play and/or sex with a trans woman. I’d need to be attracted to her (as is the case with any other play partners or sexual partners) but doing something like that is very much within my current limits and something I’m curious to explore. So I’m not really doing the back-and-forth with that anymore. That’s on pretty solid ground as far as being feasible is concerned. I’ve come to the realization that I’m attracted to people who present as feminine, regardless of whether that person has a dick or a vag. With me attraction is more about the presentation, not the parts.
What I am drifting one way and another with is forced bi. There’s a big problem though in that I have yet to meet a man I find attractive. One possible workaround would be a glory hole, but not a true random-stranger type setup. I rather enjoy being not dead and I’d like to stay that way, so random guys in seedy glory holes are absolutely not an option. If we were to try this, T would know his identity and would need to have the STI conversation beforehand. But prior to that, the first obstacle is to stop drifting back and forth on it. There are occasions when I find myself thinking it could possibly be hot, given enough involvement from T in the scene. Maybe. But there are other times when it’s still a limit. I don’t feel safe exploring something when I keep changing my mind on it from day to day; that’s just asking for disaster.
I’ve already been made to eat other mens’ cum on a couple different occasions, so that aspect wouldn’t really be anything new. From what I can tell so far, the appeal of this type of play for me seems to be more of power and d/s. Most of my major hot-button kinks are ones that push me hard and make more evident her dominance over me. Things that cause my brain to scream, “Oh fuck, stopstopstopstop please make it stoppppppp!” Considering that this is something that has always been firmly in hard limit territory for me, I think it may have that quality as well. Maybe I’ll find out at some point. This process took a long time with cuckolding though, so I don’t expect this to be any different. One step at a time.